The laziness in me decided to declare holiday yesterday. Hence, I didn't attend school. I know that's so bad of me. But urgh.. never mind. I got my reasons. Bro's birthday yesterday. Mom made tom yum steamboat for him. Simple as that. But it's real sweet and heartwarming. Xiu Zhen asked me out for drinking session at boat quay with her friends yesterday. Would love to go but I don't know her friends. Feel kinda awkard. So I declined. Later in the night, Pris asked me out for drinking session at Summer. But too bad, she asked me at sucha wrong timing. I was too afraid to ask my momsy.

On the other hand, I wouldn't want to risk my relationship with my mom again. It took me so long to realise that your Family will never be the one who would turn your back against you. Because even your most trusted friends, loved one like your spouse, boyfriend and girlfriend can turn their back against you. & the feeling of being betrayed hurts so badly. Real bad. Eh no, don't misunderstood. My bestf didn't betrayed me nor turn her back against me k. Neither do I have a boyf now. So please don't think otherwise. The reason why I said so is cause of what my parents did for me. You don't have to know okay. & I wouldn't know how to explain to you. It's something that you can only feel with your heart. Explaining using words is an understatement. But nonetheless, It's never too late to realise my mistakes. Stayed at home using the computer. Eat and eat. Horrible me. Stayed up till 5plus in the morning.

I woke up in the afternoon having a nightmare. It sends chill down my spine. I promised it's worse than encountering ghosts. It's been two days. I have been having nightmares for two consecutive days. Am I lucky or am I lucky? Prepared myself and went for tuition. Hais. Math ah. Terror man. Do the completing square method. Sian 1/2. Luckily, time flies quickly. Came home. Ate the big pau again. =x Waited for my dad to come back before we had 煮炒 for dinner. I love family gathering like this. Even though it's just having a meal together. & again, Explaining with words is an understatement. After dinner, I went to the bakery to get my bro a cake. Nothing much. Just a small one. Passed it to him. Haha. My family was smiling. Especially my Bro. He was smiling non-stop. I was happy too. Really. Nothing beats seeing your loved one smiling happily. Y'see. A small gestures like this do warms people's heart. Who say you got to spend a bomb on them just to see them smile? After all, it's the thoughts that count. Another lesson learnt, Life isn't just about making yourself happy. It's about making others happy too. I've learn to put others before myself. For, seeing others happy really make me happy too. I have never felt this kind of feeling before. & I must say I did feel good. The feeling is priceless.

Okay, I need to prepare myself now. Summer at 9. Goodbye. Oh, before I go, just wanna tell all my readers to never turn your back against your family, hate them or hurt them. I know teenagers are rebellious. I'm not an exception too. But I promised it's the most stupidest decision ever. I'm glad I realised my mistakes which I have always assumed that I'm right. Be it complaining about them, scolding them behind their back, cursing them etc. Oh well, it's over anyway. I can't turn back the past. So don't follow my footsteps. You'll regret. Really.

I finally understand what it means by going through thick and thin, weals and woes together. I saw it and felt it. All in my family. The family whom I once used to abhor so much. So much that I swore to myself to leave this place when I grow up.